Essay

 

Juggling Courageously

by Barrett L. Dorko

 

How many times have you heard, "You're a juggler? Boy, you must really be co­

ordinated! "

 

Despite my skills, I have always felt slightly uneasy about this. I mean, I don't play the piano or the guitar. Athletically I'm average for the most part, with regular displays of mediocrity. I certainly wouldn't put "really coordinated" on a job application

 

Recently I spent a couple of hours teaching juggling at a local festival. Like many of you, I watched the children race toward me, eager to try and thrilled with the least little progression of their skills. Their parents hung back, watchful and happy for the kids, but slightly uneasy with themselves. There was nothing to indicate that these lessons were not available to them, but they just stood there, using their age and past failures as an excuse for not trying.

 

It struck me then that juggling is not essentially an act of coordination, it is an act of courage.

 

In a landmark psychological study Barbara Brown discovered that the vast majority of anxiety we experience arises from "anticipated interpersonal disapproval."  The fear of appearing foolish or inadequate can paralyze someone who is ordinarily active, outgoing and successful. Think about how learning to juggle creates the appearance of foolishness and inadequacy. No wonder the adults hesitate to try!

 

At a typical meeting of the Rubber City Jugglers its easy to tell the new members from the veterans. The new ones are stared. The "jugglers" display the courage necessary to attempt new and potentially unsuccessful acts.

 

Using this criteria, the child who delights in the act of the first toss is at that point every bit the juggler I am. No one would call that child coordinated. But I know we share a bond. We are among those who face failure and the appearance of inadequacy over and over again. In this sense we are courageous and we reap the benefits of that behavior - higher self-esteem and the admiration of others.

 

Does the audience realize this? Don't they applaud the loudest when we do something that appears dangerous, even though it doesn't require the skill of other tricks?

 

The implications of this for teaching juggling are clear. Carlo and Gelb both advocate that the beginner "freeze" instead of chasing misses. Learning theory may explain the effectiveness of this in one way, but it is also evident that not being forced to chase your props frantically around the room would cut down on the appearance of foolishness and make the high percentage of early drops easier to swallow.

 

The next time you teach juggling to some­one or learn something new yourself, think of the courage it takes to invite failure into your life. Praise students for bravery before they actually learn the trick and they will stick with it. So will you!

 

One day you might even hear, "You're a juggler?  Boy, you must really be brave!"

                                                              

Barrett Dorko is a physical therapist and a member of the Rubber City Jugglers in Akron, Ohio.